Thursday, June 27, 2013

Hard time of year

This time of year is always a little off for me.  One... it is my birthday on the 29th and I have the hardest time with the concept of celebrating myself.  And two, it is the anniversary of when I went inpatient for 32 days at the Renfrew Center.  It has been 13 years but for some reason every year around this time I think about that time spent there... the women I met, how alone I felt and my parents disowning me while I was there.

This year I am going to work on celebrating myself by myself.  It is important for me to be able to celebrate me even if there is no one around.  I don't know why I feel I need that external input to feel worth something.  The only thing that matters is that I feel I am worth something.   Well, at least that is what I tell myself.

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  1. I was just telling a friend about you yesterday, and how amazing you are. You have been a gift to me, so even if you are alone on your birthday, know that I will celebrating with you in spirit!

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    1. Thank you! We will have to celebrate both of our birthdays on my way back thru. :)

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